Tag Archives: Happy

Family Art Show

Hello Everyone,

Hope all is well in your world!

Let me tell you a bit about my family world. Well, one of my brothers and his wife came up with an idea to hold family art shows!
They pick the theme and do all the planning and sort out who won, etc. We all (children included) get a sheet with 6 adhesive stars of different colours, to indicate your favourite art piece.  The gold obviously is for who you want to win and is valued the highest, and then the stars vary from blue, green and silver to represent your second, third, fourth, etc. selection. It’s heaps of fun but let me tell you, it’s very competitive and there’s some pretty arty/creative people in my family!

They call the show, The Shared Spoon.

The winner gets their name engraved along with the date and theme onto the bowl of the spoon. It’s a fairly big spoon so don’t worry, not a dessert spoon! Lol.  This last competition was Puppets and marionettes!

My son and his girlfriend placed first this year, but unfortunately I didn’t get a shot of it. His girlfriend hand knitted these tiny puppets of the Avengers, from Captain America, Thor, Iron Man, etc. Then they made a stop-motion movie with them placed to the original audio and just left it continuously running on his laptop during the show. The kids went crazy for it and couldn’t believe they had made this movie with these puppets. It’s easy to see why they won! 🙂

My brother came second with his marionette and me 3rd with my, Fortune Teller. Actually, I’m in love with it but it may scare some. Remember I’m a clown collector so to me its fun and colourful! That’s my story anyway.

My sister usually does most of the catering as she’s so good at finger foods and other easy eats. After that my brother auctions off the artwork that people don’t wish to keep; it’s all in good fun but sometimes the kids get carried away and we have to remind them to keep the bidding low! Lol

The avengers that my son’s girlfriend had made, created an enormous interest in all the kids wanting to have one, which in my very large family?!… Wasn’t possible, so the bidding went a little high on those! I think the highest one of Thor sold for $24 AUD!! 🙂 With the others ranging from $16+ That was a little absurd if I am honest, normally they are done in good fun of $1-$10.

The shows are carried out roughly every 3 months, but this one was the first in 3 years! The reason it was so long in between this time was because after I was hospitalised from attempting suicide, all our family things just stopped; I don’t know if they did it consciously or subconsciously, but I think it was because after I had attempted suicide, I told them I picked that night because we had all been together and I got to see everyone for what I thought then would be the last time. So maybe to them they didn’t want us all to be together again in case I attempted it again, and to be fair to them in the early days it was definitely possible.  Even now I have days I still struggle but I really did choose life that day and I’m in such a better place now than I was back then! When I get overwhelmed I have to just sit back and not put undue pressure on myself.
I’m really happy that things are going back to normal.

If you have a reasonably sized family you should give this ago as it’s the best fun you will ever have.

Next time I’ll take more photos of the art work as most of it I took, was the kids!

 

 

My entry this year. (Fortune Teller)
IMG_20131117_131433_951 (1)IMG_20131117_131443_223 (1)

 

 

 

 

 

My Sister In-law’s marionette puppet.
IMG_20131117_162905_109 (1)

 

My Brother’s marionette puppet.

 

 

 

 

 

 

IMG_20131117_162908_855

 

 

An example of using the stars for voting.

 

IMG_20140616_154707_433

 

 

The puppets used in my Son and his Girlfriends stop-motion film of The Avengers (Thor)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

photo 1

 

Another Puppet for the Avengers (Iron Man).

photo 2

 

Another Puppet (The Incredible Hulk)

photo 3

 

Another puppet used in the film (Black Widow).

 

 

photo 4

 

 

 

My other Son’s entry to a previous year’s competition of Monsters and Aliens, a life-sized scale, paper-mache’ ET.

 

 

 

et-small1

 

 

My Brother In-law’s entry to the Monster’s and Aliens theme, a working Ipod dock made from scratch to look like a flying saucer!
(Keep in mind, he is an Engineer, quite difficult to beat…)

 

flying-saucer-small1

 

 

Do you do anything like this as a family?

Hugs to you all, Paula xxxxx

26 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

My New Handbags!

IMG_20140105_213024_428

You know what I love better than Sex?

SHOPPING!! Hahaha.

That’s right people, shopping gives this Bipolar girl a high and buying handbags and shoes?? Even higher! Lol.

Anyone have any shoes to match my bags?? Lol.

What’s the best thing about shopping? Bargains and half price one’s at that!

I got these 2 bags half price, so technically one bag was free! Now come on guys don’t burst my bubble as that’s the way I see it, right girls? Hahaha. 🙂

Anyway I bet you guys love a bargain too; it might be on cars, computers and all that tech stuff, right? Come on admit it, you love a bargain to!  Haha.

Melbourne has these great outlets and shopping there is heaven. 🙂  In Perth we pay too much for everything, that it’s cheaper to get on a plane and head to the Eastern States (Melbourne, Sydney)

Although, a flight to Melbourne from Perth can cost anywhere from $400 to $750 return (Depending on when you fly and by which airline). Sometimes you can get even cheaper fares depending on the time of year and how far in advance you book.

Now Sydney can be like going to Bali for us here in Perth.

Some people, (actually heaps of West Australians) go to Bali as if it’s their second home! Flights to Bali with accommodation can be cheaper than the flight alone to Sydney! Still, once you are there the shopping is great; but to me, Melbourne would be the fashion capital of Oz for sure.  Don’t be offended Sydney, you’re incredible for so many other reasons!

IMG_20140105_213107_140

Well, happy shopping everyone!

Hugs to you all, Paula xxxxx

41 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

Roses

Hello fellow bloggers! 🙂

I love roses and everyone knows pink is my favourite colour; so here’s some pretty roses just starting to bloom in my garden.

The flowers on my table were sent by a friend at Christmas time, they were so pretty!

IMG_20131228_121801_287 IMG_20140106_121858_156 IMG_20140120_180609_050-1

Have a great day!

Hugs to you all, Paula xxx

29 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

Happy New Year!

Happy New Years everybody!

Another year goes by; A year of problems and pain, of love and joy – A year of hope.
Life to me is a roller-coaster; it’s full of ups and downs, twists and turns and we never know what the future of the ride will hold.
What we do know however, is that ultimately it will end.
It’s up to us how it ends though!
We can either come out on the other side, dazed and confused or we come out having conquered any fears or apprehension we had prior to our embarking.

This next year is just for that, it’s time for us all to find ourselves and conquer any regrets or fears we may hold.
I want you all to take a pen and paper.
I want you to write down everything it is that you hate about yourself, everything that you feel is the cause that’s holding you back from being the person you know that you can be.
Everything!
Now I want you to look in your garden, I want you to find a spot amongst some soil and bury it.
I want you to bury all your fears and the characteristics you hate.
Now, I want you to wake up in the morning and look at that spot.
Take a good look, because that person buried in the dirt is no longer here or with us; they are buried in the soil.
You’re a new person, with a new year and a fresh start.
Now I want you to write down all your aspirations, all the good characteristics and everything you’re hoping / wanting for in the New Year.
I want you to keep this paper, keep it somewhere close: The back of your bedroom door, the mirror on your wall or bathroom.
I want you to be able to look at that paper and feel a sense of pride; you’re on your way to being the person you want to be.

Happy New Years everyone!
May the New Year bring you everything you’ve ever wanted and more.
Wealth and Health.
I love you all.
Hugs,
-Paula. xx

61 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

5 Days till the big man in red comes!

Wow, 5 days people!

I know, some of you are going; “Shhh, I don’t want to know!” .

🙂

Well here is a little Christmas song for good cheer! Now lets all sing together. WordPress family that play together stay together, right? Hahahaha.

Have a great day, everyone!!

Hugs to you all, Paula xxxxx

13 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

What a Year!

angel year

Hey, how’s life treating you all??

Wow, I’ve kind of neglected my blog lately and have been feeling really bad about that, SORRY!!! 🙂

I’ve had good days and bad days, rainbow days and every other kind of day you can think of. Some days I felt that if I wrote I would pull the world down with me, and other days I would have lifted you as high as the sky. I guess the benefits and downfalls of being Bipolar, right??    Lol

Can you believe another year has almost past us by again. Sometimes life just flows and you float along with it; other days, they pass so quickly you nearly miss them. This year has been an enormous rollercoaster ride of emotions for me. Depression – eat your heart out!! Lol You thought you could beat me but I beat you this time. If I was going to fall apart like I did a few years ago? Then this was the year it should have happened.

I separated from my husband, which was one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make. I left my home and farm and my beloved llamas (Teco and Margie). My son and his wife separated. I went to Melbourne for a funeral. My step dad is fighting cancer and someone dear to me wanted to commit suicide and it all tore me apart. I’ve been on the Queen Mary around New Zealand, and spent 5 weeks in the U.K. I’ve been to Victoria and Tasmania and seen nature at it’s best in Oz. I’ve cried and sat down on my kitchen floor and wondered how I would make it to the next day. I’ve asked the universe to give me strength and to help me get to the next day, without wanting to give in.  And I’ve pleaded with myself to have courage to fight the darkness that at times overwhelms me. So, this is the year I should have fallen apart… But I didn’t!

How did I make it? Well, I met someone that gave me the strength to believe in me and loved me for me, all of me the good and the bad. Who knows what will become of it but I believe everything happens for a reason and I needed this person to get me where I am right now and for that I am truly grateful. People come and go from our lives and touch us in many ways.  Sometimes they are hurtful ways, and sometimes they are so beautiful and you wonder how you lived without them. But I think the most important thing is to learn something from all of them. Life is full of experiences, good and bad. We have to breath in the good and exhale the bad until it controls us no more. I feel optimistic about the future and am looking forward to 2014.

I went to the beach recently and looked at the ocean and thought how calm and peaceful it looked. Yet I know there are days that nature thrashes against the shore and you get blown away. But the next day it’s all peaceful and beautiful again. I think this is what life is like. There will always be good and bad days and people who want to drag you down with them. But we need to stay grounded amidst the storms and not let other people’s disharmony pull us down. Those that don’t support you don’t deserve you in their lives.

Stand tall and proud and embrace your joy with those whom love and support you! Release the others with love and let them be on there way as they serve you no good.

So, as I sit here at my desk and write this, I thank the universe for giving me two sons that I adore. They are one of the main reasons I have for waking every single day. They have grown in to such beautiful young men and I feel that they make my world worthwhile. I see how they love their girlfriends and how happy they make them. As a mother, this makes my heart sing! To see your children in pain is crushing, but when they are smiling laughing and telling jokes? Ahhh it’s so precious and you can’t help but smile and be in awe of them.

I saw a man recently begging for money. He said he had no power, food etc. I stopped and talked to him and gave him some money. I don’t care if he was not telling the truth. Why? because no one does that if they are happy and living an okay life. Only people that feel as if it’s there only option turn to begging. If that’s their only source of income then I believe I should help in any way I can. I’m not saying everyone else should, I’m just saying that’s how I feel about it.

So to me this is a good year – yes things have been hard, but I’m not on the streets having to beg and wonder where my next meal is coming from.  At this time of year, people in less fortunate positions deserve so much compassion.  Those alone that have nothing, No family friends or anyone to turn to for comfort.

So Paula hugs you all, and I hope that you too have found a peace in yourself and can let the past be the past, and start to look forward to a much brighter and happier 2014!

You, the blogging family/community, have helped me get through this year in more ways than one. You have allowed me to express my feelings and throw them into cyberspace where I have had nothing but full support throughout the year. You are all truly amazingly beautiful people and I adore each one of you. After blogging for sometime now you start to get little images of what you think your regular followers look like etc. So Yes, i’m talking to you and you and you and you! Yes You!! Lol  I can’t help but laugh as Sakura just looked at me as if I’m crazy! 🙂

I have images of all of you and they are all good images of great people I admire and respect, and I enjoy getting to know you all through your blogs and mine. You truly are like a little extended family to me. From all races and walks of life we all come together as one, and this is the magic of our WordPress family! I am more open here with you than I am to those around me in the real world. I say thank goodness for WordPress and it’s co- founders. 🙂

What have I learnt this year? Well, we can’t ever change the past but we can seek out the future happiness we all so desire and deserve.

I thank every single one of you that have come to my site and touched my heart with your kindness. You have picked me up, when even I didn’t know how I would get there. You are all incredibly beautiful people who have been generous with your love and support and I hug all of you for it! 🙂

Next year I plan to share a lot more of my life through photos, video posts and basically let you into all the mundane things life has to offer along with all the great things. Hell, I’ll even tell you what coffee I drink, as long as you tell me what your is?? Lol

Love to you all, Paula xxxxx

image source

36 Comments

Filed under My experiences, What makes me happy

What Is Hypomania To Me!

This is kind of a strange rambling0-type of post. Lol.

 

You know the days when you wake and just wish you hadn’t. You just want to start the day again. Well this happens to nearly everyone, right?

But when you have Bipolar this can be hourly, daily, weekly, yearly, etc. etc. You get the message.

So when you hear someone with Bipolar talk about Hypomania, it can sound quite strange and stressful for those around us; and hard to understand what it actually means.

So let me explain what it’s like for me:

 

…Now I’m not generalising everyone with Bipolar, it’s what I experience!

I personally find it uplifting, very energising, draining and especially TIRING, all in one!

During this time I’m way more productive and positive, what’s difficult for those around us is that they find us hard to keep up with and can barely shut us up.

Loads of thoughts, plans, ideas, etc.  If you’re the arty type, it can be a very creative time as well. The problem is, you don’t get why those around you can’t keep up… and they seem less than enthusiastic. Lol!

When this happens, a person experiencing this can find sleeping very, very difficult; in fact you get very little sleep. Your mind is racing at million miles an hour and sleep just isn’t on the agenda.

You could almost liken it to someone taking speed, yet its free and you have no real control over it. I could laugh and joke all day and night long and still be smiling the next morning. Someone could easily excite me at this point almost like hyping up a child and then trying to put them to bed. Well guess what, It doesn’t work no matter how much you will it.

You just can’t shut down and go to sleep.

And If you have any yeah-bute plans in life? I will be your biggest fan pushing you and motivating you.
At first you will love it and love that someone will listen so enthusiastically and have so many ideas. But where is the off switch you say?  Hmmm even I don’t know this one! Lol.

It may not sound bad and probably could be a good thing, right? But, Nooooo!!!! I won’t let you sleep either!! I’ll still be thinking of ideas that you should  use or do to get to where you want to be.

It’s like there’s no off button and you will have to keep changing channels to find where I’m at.

But, like all things in life… What goes up – Must come down! 

Fairies-fairies-28045313-300-289

This is the horrible part: You’ve been flying high and living on little sleep and going and going till… Bang! Down you come falling into the darkness.

Depression is easy to fall into at this point of time. You’re exhausted mentally and physically.

Now I’m only talking about myself, yet I know many with Bipolar will understand this and have had similar experiences.
What I’ve learnt from this is to kind of monitor myself beforehand. Meaning,  there is usually little tale tale things that after spending time with me you can see I’m becoming excitable and not sleeping very well before the Hypomania starts to take over.

The fall from grace comes quite quickly and you can land with a thud! During this time I tend to withdraw from those around me, usually the closest people that love me and vice versa. Maybe I do it because I don’t want them to see how smiling is nearly impossible. You see if they see this…they worry, but to me it’s my way of coping and trying to balance life back out. Suicidal thoughts can play with my mind and I  start to think life is just too hard and I’m too tired to keep fighting for it.

I start doubting myself and those around me and wonder who really loves me for me…all of me, the good and the bad. The only way I can explain it is it’s like self sabotage; you hear everyone around you but you start to look for hidden messages in what they are saying to you… Truth be told they aren’t saying anything, it’s just you that’s driving you down a very negative path. I think I become very insecure and it’s easier to withdrawal and say nothing than to say what am truly thinking. My thoughts are deep and dark and I very really let anyone into them. I smile and wonder who can really sees the real me? The me that’s falling apart and crying on the inside. But,I don’t think anyone can.

It’s a strange thing to explain and really only those that experience it can really understand where your coming from.

I could never hurt anyone in life, but I’m the one I hurt the most. Childhood memories and bad experiences plague my mind during this time.

So this is Hypomania to me and if you are like me? I hug you and encourage you to keep fighting the darkness.
Take a deep look at nature and remember the beauty the world has given us and the life we have been given. It wasn’t given to us for us to take it away.

One day at a time.

Embrace the good days and breathe through the bad.

Keep smiling and stay strong. 🙂

Love and many hugs to our blogging family/community.

Paula xxxxx

49 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

I love…

Move-300x225

I love sunshine, and how when it hits my face I feel alive and invigorated.

I love my family and friends, for they keep me strong and don’t allow me to fall down.

I love colour, for the world isn’t black and white.

I love to look at the ocean; it keeps me calm.

I love the garden because it keeps me close to nature.

I love butterflies for they look so graceful when they fly.

I love dancing, as it wakes my soul.

I love the moon and how I gaze in wonder.

I love Sakura for she is the great love of my life and brings me peace.

I love all people of all races and religion… We are all connected.

I love chocolate – it lifts dark clouds! 

I love watching children play and listening to their laughter. So innocent and free.

I love Game Of Thrones!! 🙂

I love travelling, But when that plane arrives back in Australia? That’s when I’m truly home.

I love today; the sun is shining!

I love our blogging family/community

Ohhh and I love Bourbon. Lol

What do you love?

Hugs to you all. Paula xxxxxooo

image credit

47 Comments

Filed under What makes me happy

Happy Weekend!!

Says No One.Hello my lovely fellow bloggers!! 🙂

Hope you are having a great weekend. See you back here on Monday! 🙂

Hugs to you all.  Paula xxxxx

12 Comments

Filed under What makes me happy

Frank

Flying with Frank

Hello Everyone! 

Rahul asked me to post a photo of my stepdad. At first I was reluctant to do so…
However, I changed my mind as I want to show how amazing and quirky he really was.

This shot was taken when I was 17. We were about to go out and he said, “We don’t need to drive, we can fly!”
This is an example of the fun crazy things he did… So we spread our arms and pretended to fly! 

Note the stubby shorts and beer in his hands. We were getting ready to go to a BBQ. Beer and barbecues go hand in hand in Australia, especially in a country town where we were living at the time.

Thank you to everyone for all the well wishes. 

Will get back to blogging soon.

Hugs to you all….Paula xxxx

 

 

30 Comments

Filed under My experiences, What makes me happy