When I first started this blog I had no real idea who or if anyone would read it.
I don’t think I’m unique in that thought… I think a great deal of bloggers start out with that in the back of their minds.
To me, I used it as a form of therapy – kind of like emptying my treasure chest, only the whole world was able to see in it!
At first that kind of scared me, and then I just started writing and after time realised that I was becoming lighter, and the chest was slowly being emptied. And for whatever the reason, I no longer worried who would be reading my life. In part because I realised the blogging community as a whole are very nurturing, caring people.
The people I follow and vice versa have become like extended family to me. I’m from a huge family, so I don’t say this out of desperation; I say it because I mean it! 🙂
Okay, back to that chest. Now this chest was pretty full, so by no means does that mean I’m done. Lol
But life is getting easier and accepting me, and all the other parts to Paula, is becoming easier to understand. Being Bipolar is no excuse for me to not lead a quality life like everyone else. Naturally I’m going to have the odd hurdle (or 2 or 3) that I have to make sure I can clear, but I can and will keep doing it. Depression is another strange thing to live with. I’ve come to accept that it’s kind of like a friendship that has to be nurtured. I need to love respect and care for it. Because when I don’t? It will let me down and turn it’s back on me until once again I’m showing it the love and understanding it needs.
Before I leave you all, I just want to send my love to those that I wrote my last post about. You all have shown great strength and courage to trying to find your way back to happiness. It will happen and there will be days you fall down, but get up and try again tomorrow. I hug you all, as I think hugging the world is good for the soul. Love and respect everyone and they will love you back. Hold no racism or prejudice and see how easy it is to love everyone! I’ve said it many many times…We all bleed the same colour, right?
I thank each and everyone of you that have supported and inspired me on this journey of finding out who Paula is.
Today we have had sunshine and my world is shining, I hope yours is too. xx
Love and hugs to you all. Paula xxxxx