Because the ability to rationalise things gets taken away from me. My mind plays tricks and confuses me into thinking everything around is doom and gloom, instead of just accepting that not everything in life is perfect and the PAST IS IN THE PAST!
So I sit there and let my mind just drift into the emptiness that I’m feeling.
Depression leads to anxiety and then I’m feeling like someone is strangling me and I can’t breathe.
You see laughter but you can’t hear it!
You see beauty but you can’t feel it!
Everything is nothing and nothing is everything!
Where is the sun? because I can’t feel its warmth,
Where is the rain because I don’t feel wet?
It’s a lonely, confused and lost place. Death consumes my weakened mind.
I beg my mind to be happy and think about the present and how much pain I would cause if I died.
You Don’t Control Depression! Depression Controls You!
These words always echo in my mind!
I won’t let my depression ever take a hold of me again to the point where I think death is my only escape. I will fight and keep on fighting because life is a gift and It would destroy those that love me. I would destroy so many lives and I have no right to do such a thing.
So does Depression Control Me? At times…Yes! But that’s not a reason to give up fighting it!
Never give up! Let love and light into your world.
Seek help anywhere you can because you’re not worthless, you’re something – and someone out there loves you more than life itself.
If you’re gone, they’re gone!